I've Reached The 1 Year Mark! & The Leaves Are Turning

It has been officially 1 year, since I have transitioned to living full time. Woot woot!

It has been an awesome year. I have grown by leaps and bounds! Looking back at my 2009 October post was fun. I now remember I had met Mr. Scooter boy, and hadn't yet transitioned... So in anticipation of our meet up at a cafe... I grabbed my scissors, and cut away at my shaggy mop of hair.. to reveal a cute little bob... I unintentionally catapulted myself into a full time status. (no self identified guy would be caught dead with that cute cut, bangs and all!)

At that time I was also sowing seeds. The seed was this statement: World; I am a beautiful, self confident, smart, sexy, reliable, and capable WOMAN. Hear me Roar! Rawr!!!!

The universe heard me and the result was a flood of new relationships and experiences that would follow through out the year.

And now the most recent reaping...

Seasons are wonderful, one of my favorite feelings is the awareness that a new season is upon us. It brings so much excitement, thinking about nostalgic moments of past seasons, and the people who made those times so special. My favorite season is fall, and that's where I find myself at this very moment. Much like the seasons of the weather, there are also seasons of our lives. I have glimpsed a new season for my life, a season of friendship with other women.

I'm so grateful for this. Its something that I treasure and have gained a new appreciation for in my new life as a woman. Deep conversation, intimate discussion... it seems this was previously lost on me, in my former life. Part of me was closed and caloused back then, part of me was undiscovered too, and I'm sure there are lots of other reasons as well. However, that is fairly irrelevant to the fact that I'm now awake. I don't know how I existed for so long without it in my life. It feels so central to who I am now. I find that it is possibly the most significant part of me that I can offer in my end of a relationship. So now I find myself emerging and learning how to offer this to others.

Its hard to open your heart and soul, and it hurts so terribly if someone hurts you when you've exposed so much to them. So it takes wisdom and good judgement. I know many have closed down this part of themselves for those exact reasons, but a light hidden is simply a shame.

Sharing yourself is one of those cool things, that feels so good to do, but many times is doubly rewarding for the listener as well. Much is this may be obvious to some, but I felt so moved by my recent experiences, I thought I would just highlight my thoughts on it.

♥Elle♥