"It is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all" I have no idea who said that but its what I have been thinking lately. There is so much to experience and living that comes with the willingness to try, to take risks, to open your heart, to love...
When we are far from love, or bitter from the pain of love.. its so easy to become jaded or simply forget the richness of life- when we have love that is good. Part of the problem for some of us, is that we've never had love that is good, only partially good, or it was abuse or hatred disguised as "love". If one has never experienced that sweetness.. I wouldn't blame them for wanting nothing at all to do with relationships, or love.
I say all this because I've been in and out of a few different relationships lately... and I'm not down on life, just because those relationships haven't been what I had hoped. Don't get me wrong.. I'm am NOT being easy or being slutty (at least i hope not). I take my time and I ensure that I'm respected in what I want and don't want and I don't enter into things lightly but openly without too many expectations.
so..
I recently was was asked out on a date by a guy that I know from my transgender support group... a trans guy. We've gone on a few dates. I find it slightly comical, just because we're are both trans but coming from the opposite teams, lol. The great thing is that our issue doesn't require explanation, at least not alot. But Its been super cool, and we have a great connection. So far, so good.. I don't know where this may lead.. but again, I feel fortunate to just be where I am, and more whole for having this experience, despite where it may or may not lead. I like the fact that I can now appreciate what my partners have had to contend with. I have to say.. its pretty confusing at times, and intimacy requires some discussion and talk about boundaries, and I think about how or what others may think.. but I'm trying hard to release those thoughts.
I have been starting to look at life through a new lens, a Buddhist perspective. I am attempting to see things as they are.. not wrong or right, no judgment, and to be here in the now, mindful of what is before me, and to transcend the physical to the spiritual. This has helped me in my transition, but also now as I view my partner who is also in transition.
cheers to life,
Elle
You look great. Hope you find happiness and work
ReplyDeletehey why are there comments being left in Chinese? Im all for international followers but I dont know what is being said..and its really annoying to have to have everything translated by babelfish.. grrrr
ReplyDeleteHi...just a quick note to let you know that while your vid clips are long gone, they did help me to realize who I am...eventually.
ReplyDeleteSo, thanks for being who you are and best of luck as you continue your journey.
xoxo
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ReplyDeleteSo, I am in a communication course and our final assignment is to write from the perspective of someone from a different co-culture than ourselves. I chose someone from the transgender community. I need to find someone willing to do a very quick phone or online interview talking about how being in the co-culture that you are effects your communication, both verbal and nonverbal, with people who are not in that community. I don't know if that made any sense, but if you are willing to participate, I would really appreciate it.
Please email me @ kaceylynn89@yahoo.com if you are willing to help, thankyou. -Kacey