Life changes. As much as we want things to stay the same, they don't. Sometimes it hurts and sometimes its a blessing. Thats how I feel at this moment. I may seem a bit silly but its kinda emotional for me. I started my video log about about 1 year ago, and today I decided it was time to end it. I just lost my heart and reason to continue on. Well thats part of it anyway. The other half of it is that I simply cant stand looking at my own image. I feel gross and stupid.
Wrong or right. Its how I feel. Have I given up? no. Just dont care to try anymore, to keep up with anyone else. I dont know. hard to explain. But putting my face out there is just not what I want to do anymore.
Kinda sad tonight, just thinking of all the journey that I traveled in these last years.. and so much of it alone. I wonder if I will feel the same as I do today in a years time... or will I be worse? Better maybe?
The universe seems to always open doors, and I will continue to walk through them.
You're a beautiful woman with many great gifts. You're a talented vlogger, an excellent writer, and from what I can tell a genuinely good person.
ReplyDeleteHeartbreak is a curse that haunts only those can truly love. You'd be surprised at just how many people can profess their love to another, yet have no clue what love really is.
They can't even be pegged for selfish, b/c they don't even love themselves.
You'll not only find love, but you'll find that your life is important and has a purpose -- a purose that no one else can fulfill but you :)
Christian.