Thursday - woke up today.. feeling like crap. I have extra sore breasts, Im super irratable, having some stomach pain, and I feel like im on the verge of tears, and it doesnt help my love interest has dropped off the planet... my conclusion is that im having my monthly cycle...Welcome to womanhood?
Im currently on my 4th month, for my HRT. I have had small changes really starting around month 2, mostly with breast growth, and now im starting to think that I actually gained alot of weight since I was working out consistanly for the the last 3 months. I incidently have stopped, mostly due to motivational reasons. I felt like nothing was changing, but could be that im losing muscle mass, and gaining fat in certain areas and also losing some weight (due to exercise).. and the end result is zero weight change.. its alot to try to nail down... anyway. I know that it is always beneficial to be doing regular excercise, and I also read that one also will have better HGH (human growth hormone) levels if you do, (which contribute to all those lovely changes im hoping for) along with eating breakfast. so I guess its time to hope on the eliptical, at the very least I'll be keeping up with my Tyra, while I sweat.
That brings me to another reason (I almost forgot) of why I stopped going to the gym. It was really getting weird going into the mens locker room. I also stopped being able to get changed there, imagine: off comes the shirt and oops.. I have some explaining to do. Also Ive been tucking, and I wear womens undies (sorry if this is TMI) theyre really nuetral looking but im still paranoid, about them looking like exactly what they are- panties. I also have to wear an ace bandage to bind my breast, so as you can see.. its alot of work "going to the gym". Maybe I'll just start running around my neighborhood! sheesh.
I'm going ridiculously slow, too, but I don't regret it. When I pull the switch at the end of the year, I'll have a lot of the awkward stuff behind me.
ReplyDeleteI found that the most profound changes start to happen at the one year mark. But everyone is different. Hope everything goes well for you. You look like you're making great progress.
I totally hear you. It's a funny thing, working out.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, I've never been a gym-goer, but I do run a lot. But when I started going full time I still felt not so passable for the first half-year to year in a running outfit. So I got in the habit of only running at night. Probably not the wisest thing, a girl running along Venice Beach and surrounding neighborhoods after dark, but I'm pretty fast when I wanna be, and gutsy apparently.
Also, yeah, I found that every push I took to peel some pounds really helped my figure tremendously. The idea being, take the weight off the boy areas, let it come back to the girl areas.
I'm trying to lose 15lbs right now, but every time I make a push like this, it's always a few weeks before I see anything happen. I guess it's the muscle building that comes with the increased exercise, then I see a change.
What I sorta have to do is put myself in the mindset for now that I'm doing it to do it and be healthy and not concern myself with the weight loss.
But yeah, I totally hear ya. :)
PS, you are stunning!!!!