Newness Everyday

I have re-named my blog to reflect the fact that I feel like my life has moved forward into broader regions (and really always was) than just my transition. Its really an exciting declaration for me. It means that I'm growing out that phase of my life where my singular focus seemed to be on my transition process. Of course I will never be "done" with all of it, and I'll continue to talk about those type of issues here. I'm sure my friends and family are sick of me talking about it! Since I stumbled onto the fact that I identified as transgender in about 2007, my mind has literally never stopped thinking about the issue. It was so powerful, and the fact that I could think of nothing else was one of the indications that it was so real and true for me. Once I realized I had options to do something about these feelings, my one focus was on that task.

So in a kind of farewell to that time of growth and change. I say this; change has been and will always be a challenge to us and those around us. It can be painful and dreadful at times, but in the end when I embrace that change with the knowledge that I'm being honest and true to myself, that change can be wonderful and fulfilling, and that's exactly what it has been.

I have continued my routine of meditation and have been pleased with the direction my life is moving. I have found that I have begun to identify more closely with a very simple Buddhist philosophy, the principle of mindfulness, not holding on or grasping for anything, and recognizing the simple truth and beauty in each breath we breathe. I am seeing the newness in every moment of everyday. It has given me such a simple joy and peacefulness.

Now as the new year begins, I breathe in (Life, freshness and wholeness) and breathe out (death, negativity and brokenness)

♥ Elle Renee ♥